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CHAPTER 12

And that will be further, nobody knows. Andrey tried to remove whenever possible strongest of the pressure, having met the conscious and subconscious desires. But, it could not satisfy any desire, and if could, each met desire would approach it to the internal freedom, allowing to be engaged in favourite business. Each of many anxieties did not give to it neither a dream, nor rest.

That Andrey was in long deep depression, was obvious. Loss of everything that made profit, in what thoughts on the prospect, all conscious life were put, has been destroyed by the woman. And whom did not excite, what prospect waits Andrey. Its former wife, in the justification of the not unequivocal actions, confirming to the correctness, wished it death, and together with Andrey that is known to nobody would die. And the former mother-in-law is hatred and meanness top, it is ruthless to all that who prevents to be justified to it, and to justify the mean daughter. All family Габузовых was uniform in hatred and meanness if who be from them, makes meanness they amicably support meanness and the relative. And if someone hates someone that hate all.

Andrey long tried to choose and find to itself work. What incidents would not occur to Andrey, they strongly influenced possibility of execution of desires. Andrey disturbed events, but actually it is uneasy because this event can change prospects of satisfaction of its desires. When Andrey lost work it ran into the anxiety connected, not with its relation to work, and with threat to its desires. Andrey without family cares, does not demand a regular food and not aspiring to make impression upon people surrounding it. It quite is content with position of not recognised writer and the artist. After he has decided to fasten with pedagogical activity, and has decided to pass to a working speciality there were many problems. Powerful depression prevented to concentrate to it. Coming from work, it got to loneliness, and it strongly irritated him.

There has passed time, almost year after divorce, Andrey that got a job, and if something was not pleasant to it, it left, so it has changed some enterprises. Andrey was arranged to work on «Lensnab». From those enterprises, that he saw, it was the most decent, the heads more formed and decent. On «Lensnab» with the assistance of Andrey organised new manufacture. Andrey could realise the organizational possibilities and technical abilities. Andrey and two more workers with the assistance of their chief, repaired a premise, established the equipment, made technological equipment.

For manufacturing of preparations on «Lensnab» it was necessary to pass certification on enterprise "Katarpilyar". Both all workers, and Andrey began to go on «Katarpilyar». To each worker have fixed on the instructor, and is more true on the tutor. One of technological operation was carving cutting, here on ability нарезания carvings and it was necessary to be certified. When Andrey has seen the the tutor, and it was by the form the severe woman to it became not on itself. They have got acquainted, and called instructor Tamara, the woman of years of forty.

The first day observed Andrey, how Tamara cuts in details a carving. It periodically passed on factory and looked, who that does. It was interesting to it, he did not see for a long time the working enterprises. Andrey had already a presentiment, that is fast at it depression will pass, but it to it will return, when it will come home, and will feel loneliness, and all will be as yesterday. Here so in supervision and in theoretical studying also there has passed the first day.

For the second day the tutor began to admit Andrey to the machine tool. Its tutor tsarina Tamara all time hurried up, and showed the superiority. Andrey was nervous a little, as Andrey once worked as the master of inservice training he understood, that such tutor will learn him to much, but only in the following life. To Andrey the tutor has allowed to make completely a detail. Andrey has risen for the machine tool and начел manufacturing. Tamara constantly adjusted it words: « Faster; Move; That you as sleepy; From such muzhiks to sense does not awake; and so on ». In half an hour Andrey was on гране a psychosis from the tutor so it for a long time did not lead up. For it, that this Tamara it was impossible to send the most insulting, and ahead still certification here on«Katarpilyar». After Tamara, Andrey's next"kind"words in a condition of a sharp psychosis, from a turn has hit a forehead in a machine tool corner. The sharp pain has pierced Andrey, he ругнулся, and then it stroked a hand a forehead. Then it has sat down on a support, has looked at a hand palm, on it he has seen blood, but he has seen only a blood drop. Tamara has brought a mirror to Andrey, he has seen, that all not so is bad, and on a forehead not the big graze. And in a head not the big pain. Tamara has brought to Andrey a soda water glass, it sat also small drinks of saws. In the end of the working day, cleaning of the machine tool and round it was coming Andrey. As soon as Andrey has begun cleaning that in two minutes, Tamara has sent it to be transferred. It has not sustained, still the fulfilled mockery in the ranks of the Soviet Army, a cleaning technique. This day it is more to the machine tool did not approach.

Has passed two days. Andrey has come earlier for work. On a workplace he has met the colleague with «Lensnab». It sat on a support, and near to it its tutor, the young woman. The colleague has told to Andrey the story of its tutor which to it was told by Tamara: «Andrey has come from the big hang-over for work, from it sweat flew and it all shook. It hardly moved and constantly stumbled. Because of its bad condition it has hit about the machine tool. All machine tool has been filled in by blood. And it has resulted fur-trees-fur-trees of Andrey in feelings and has washed it from blood». The colleague, laughing in a place with the tutor, has asked Andrey:

- How to you such story?

- Abruptly, as in a fairy tale. - Andrey has answered.

- I to the tutor have told: «That you at all do not drink. And as that is strange all it sounds». - Has told, dying of laughter the colleague.

Andrey with humour has told to the colleague and its tutor as all was. The tutor of the colleague has told:

- Yes, she about all tells fables, it is nature such. It does all quickly, and at it it is a lot of free time. So there is time to chat. - the tutor has quite seriously told, and has then laughed.

- Here сказочница, to it books to write, instead of on «Katarpilyar» to work. To me basically it is indifferent, that about me the similar woman will tell. - Smiling, Andrey has told.

- Soon to hand over certification here. How you think, we will hand over? - The colleague asked with uncertainty.

- Do not twitch. At us, that the choice is not present. If we here do not hand over, us will dismiss with «Lensnab». Certainly, we will hand over, where we will get to. We still will show to them, how it is necessary to work correctly. Yes be not afraid, all will be normal, all will be good. - undoubtedly in eyes he has answered the colleague.

There has come attestative day. Andrey with the colleague were in the first change. It was necessary for them to execute the replaceable plan and to make details with excellent quality. Andrey descended on a warehouse, and has replaced the worn out tool, the new tool. Andrey with the colleague not hurrying up for change, have executed the replaceable plan, and with an excellent estimation have handed over details in checking department. All were very happy. Andrey with the colleague that have won at «Katarpilyar». That them have not dishonoured the heads. On возращению on «Lensnab», them have praised for the done work. A week later «Katarpilyar» has transferred details to manufacturing on «Lensnab».

On «Lensnabе» the industrial site has started to work. And easy not hurrying up the plan every day it was carried out. With plan increase, it was necessary to type industrial workers, the management was engaged in it. And Andrey had to train, again arrived workers. The management has raised the salary twice, it was pleasant to Andrey. Here Andrey of has already felt the most satisfied with work. The anxiety at Andrey occurs from inwardness, instead of from external events. If there are no desires there is no also an anxiety. Andrey thought, as if it aspire to safety, but actually he aspired to sensation of safety. Search of freedom from anxieties, does not mean search safe a situation. As though Andrey did not try to reach sensation of safety, it was interfered by other desires and external forces. The fear before external forces weakens, when with them it is possible to consult. Search to find a way of the least resistance, not always gave positive result. He understood, that on many desires years can be necessary. That Andrey could meet the desires, not attracting on itself of troubles, he should learn to wait. He should understand correctly the environment to reduce danger of defeat or  destruction, and to wait when time will come to operate. Andrey had to get rid of influence of people on its mentality as their influence can force to do the largest errors. There was time, the collective varied, workers left for various reasons, and someone should be dismissed. There were only invariably heads.

Any society is obliged to bring up creative aspirations and to suppress the destructive. But in a life there are other events. The love and hatred can exist a side обок at a time in relation to the same person. But people are inclined to consider love and hatred as contrasts. Andrey worked practically without days off, for it the good salary. He waited, that will arrive to study the elder son, and it has not arrived, and refused to communicate with the father. But money has not rescued his soul, its internal problems began to come back, and there were external problems.

In a year of work has appeared on «Lensnabе» the manager, the woman, by name of Ната, years on five is more younger Andrey. It was pleasant at once to Andrey. It constantly gave signs, and tried to communicate and pay as much as possible with it to it attention. It accepted Andrey signs, and submitted the. Periodically it made advances to Andrey. Andrey had a hope of the decision of the anxiety. It began to go with the big interest for work. What увидать it again and again. And in two months she has called it on a cellular telephone. Andrey was on work, there was a second change, and there was an evening. And by phone has told to Andrey:

- Greetings! Andrey

- Greetings! Ната. - with the Happy voice he has answered.

- How it is worked? - A cheerful voice she has asked Andrey.

- Yes all like normal. Problems are not present. All goes the turn. Only it is boring without you. - he has answered it.

- I like you? You have fallen in love with me? - She asked the confident and cheerful voice.

- Yes, there is a such. - he has answered gently.

- You wish to go tomorrow with me to me on a summer residence? - She efficiently asked Andrey, it is a little doubting, that he can agree.

- Well, I agree, I for a city did not leave for a long time. Especially during week-end to have a rest on a summer residence it it is not bad. - удовлетворенно spoke Andrey Nate.

 They still for a long time talked. They had a cheerful and good mood. Have agreed where and during what time they to meet. And when they to return back to St.-Petersburg.

 Early in the morning they have met at the Moscow station, it was with the girlfriend. They have sat down in an electric train and have gone for a city. They all road constantly talked, and all it very much was pleasant to Andrey. When they left an electric train, Andrey has started to be nervous, it was not for a long time already in such difficult situation for it. They went not hurrying up to sandy road. Addressing to Here you are, the girlfriend has told:

 - While we there awake to prepare, start up your friend Andrey fire wood collects for shish kebabs and the brazier will put.

 - The friend it or not, we still will check up it. - has told Ната, with an interrogative and thoughtful smile.

 Andrey went on road, and has thought of a phrase: « The friend it or not, we still will check up it ». He was confused with such formulation. He could not understand, that it means. Andrey as always considered a situation from the point of view of the interests, and it was necessary to take a detached view of it. And he would understand very many. Anyway they faced to the house on a country site. Ната at once has suggested Andrey to change clothes in a country sports suit. Andrey has brought fire wood, has established a brazier. Andrey has made fire in a brazier, and they began to wait, when there will be coals that it was possible to prepare shish kebabs. Ната has got a vodka bottle, and they have drunk gramme on fifty. Behind conversations coals for shish kebabs were ready, and they have started to prepare shish kebabs. So behind conversations, not hurrying up, under shish kebabs and other snack they have drunk all bottle. It seemed to them a little, especially and of shish kebabs and snack it was full, and they descended in shop and took one more bottle of vodka. Having accepted on fifty gramme, girlfriend Naty has gone to sleep. And they remained one. They talked much, laughed, and Ната has asked Andrey:

 - Andrey you understand, so has occurred, what the Petersburg residence permit is necessary to me, you can register me?

 - I have not understood, and in what a problem? - Has asked again with astonishment Andrey.

 - At me the residence permit comes to an end, and without it me on factory will not let in. Help me. Very much it is necessary to me. - Persuaded Nata Andrey.

 - Yes at me to many people it is registered. And as without their consent I will register you. And why you do not have residence permit? - Being justified, has asked Andrey not understanding tone.

 - Yes it not main, main your consent. And the rest to me will help to make. - confirmed nervous voice Ната.

 - All is strange it, and is not clear. No, at us, it will not turn out. - answered more and more being surprised with Andrey.

 - At me in two weeks the time residence permit comes to an end. So you will register me? - Business tone she asked Andrey.

 Ната still for a long time persuaded Andrey. Andrey listened Нату, drank vodka, ate shish kebabs. But it did not enter dialogue any more. In itself(himself) he already was upset. He thought that it has liked the woman, and it has appeared that it is necessary for this purpose that it to register at itself(himself). And it was the first day, for last year when it has left on the nature. And in the first put on the nature such offers as though they know each other for a long time. When Ната has understood, that conversation on a theme of its residence permit in Petersburg, it has not turned out, she has called Andrey in the house. Andrey has filled in a brazier with water, and has entered into the house. Has approached to Here you are. They have embraced and began to kiss in засос. When clothes on them it has not appeared, and it is necessary to lay down only on a bed, Andrey has involuntarily pushed Нату, it has fallen to a bed. Andrey took a cigarette and has lighted. Ната, not understanding, that he waits, it naked and on all ready lays before it, and he smokes. Its sight asked to be engaged in Andrey business, instead of to smoke. From that that he has not distinguished powerful stress Нату, superfluous alcohol and a full stomach has beaten off all sexual desires to Here you are. Ната has risen from a bed, has nestled on Andrey and the beginnings it to caress. At Andrey the head has begun to spin, and it has made a start from Наты. But left in another way, Andrey remained to stand, and Ната has fallen to a bed, and has a little hit. Ната has jumped from a bed and has escaped to sleep to the girlfriend. And Andrey has laid down in a bed, was covered with a blanket, was absorbed in a pillow, and has fallen asleep till the morning. In the morning, girlfriend Naty has already left, and they have gone to Petersburg together. All road they were silent. And when they have appeared in the underground Ната the angered tone has told to Andrey: «You have satisfied me in one in other. I was disappointed you. We with you will not support more relation, and to communicate with you too. I hope, you on work to whom you will not tell, that we with you together were and that did».

Not to tell, that it it was last hope fortunately, but, that there was a hope, it is the truth. Andrey had not to contact for a long time household prostitutes. But this time, it has communicated with such woman. For it it was powerful stress, and it has run into depression. As Andrey was bothered with its favourite girlfriend - depression. Why again does not carry? And as with it to struggle. Emptiness, absence of hopes of the future. What could lead Andrey to a suicide? Loneliness. A life in full moral isolation. Absence of attachment and the obligations, forcing to keep for a life. Feeling of loneliness and own uselessness in the absence of a seed life. Andrey has left with «Lensnab».

In the country, and all over the world there has come an economic crisis. I do not know as there all over the world, but at us in the country it has reminded well staged film. And soul crisis in the country was constant. And who with it did not struggle, and what for, after all financial profit from it what. When the man has equaled the rights of the woman it has received a boomerang effect, the man has lost all rights to home life, and especially it has lost the rights to own children. Now for the country mother of easy behaviour is more important (we will tell so not to be expressed), than a normal family or at least the rights of the man to own children.

After dismissal Andrey had to be registered in labour exchange. At a stock exchange he has persuaded, that it have sent to study as courses, on retraining. To Andrey have gone on a meeting and it have sent to study in academy. And he about new year studied as the system administrator. When it has ended an educational institution, he could not get a job, as the enterprises in connection with an economic crisis at all did not employ.

Absence of a balanced diet, long depression has resulted Andrey in hospital. Sharp pains have braided Andrey and it has appeared on an operational table, and to it have performed operation under the general narcosis. After a while, Andrey laid the patient on a cot. Near to Andrey's cot there was a dropper which entered a medicine into blood. In chamber the people were cheerful, though also the patient. Hobby of the chief of branch after the report to it attending physician Andrey it to speak such words: «If a special medicine not to accept, you only will live of year three». To Andrey words of the chief of branch have managed in копеечку, and differently, what for he spoke? It is unique, that that on money untwisted all was not insulting. So Andrey has lain in hospital two weeks. And month has left on its rehabilitation.

Andrey again начел to search for work. In the summer, going after interview with the employer. Which was ready to employ it. Andrey, passing road on a pedestrian crossing, is run over by a car. Andrey sits, on asphalt, and keeps for a head. When Andrey tried to rise, in feet it had not stood pain. To it have caused first aid. On first aid it take away in hospital. After to Andrey have made diagnostics, to it have plastered a foot, and it has again appeared in hospital. It laid on cots, with the plastered foot.

Three single food with constant pricks, did not upset Andrey. Wives came to chamber to patients, mother, friends every day someone to them came. Constantly, something brought the patient. To Andrey mum has come to hospital. It to it has brought to have a drink, mineral water, juice and to eat the house. They have talked, and mum has offered Andrey:

- You sing. I to you have brought herrings under a fur coat, it very tasty. You sing while it fresh. Take a plug and breads.

- Mum! When to me do not offer me a herring under a fur coat. Me from it тошнит, and me it is bad, when I it see. Remember, when to me do not offer a herring under a fur coat. - Andrey, nervously turning in a bed, spoke these words.

 He recollected the life. Andrey when whom did not leave in a difficult situation. But Andrey now one, and to whom it is not necessary. It cannot go, so is high-grade to live. So it has lain in hospital ten days. When it have written out, by the hospital car it have brought home.

Now it laid at home on the bed, on apartment moved on all fours. And it meant as, creeping it is possible to live. Andrey has transferred the computer to a sleeping room, time at it is full, to go it is yet fast can. And in the Word he has written: the Story-story «the Herring under a fur coat»

EPILOGUE

Andrey has called in settlement the Pine. In three years Mariyana has agreed to speak with Andrey. After not long conversation

Mariyana has asked Andrey:

- If I return, you will accept me?

- I was the first at you, and now I will be the twentieth. - Andrey has thoughtfully told.

After a short pause Andrey has added:

- No, I will not accept you.

- You said, what me love? - Asked nervously Mariyana.

Is now only my love, and it is not necessary to you, and you it does not concern.

P.S.-1   

The dissolved woman as a rat, it is ready to interrupt pregnancy, and to become pregnant from another, for the sake of financial position increase.

P.S.-2   

If the Penza pedagogical institute lets out the teacher, Russian and the literature, and it positions itself(himself) as «Glamour scum». That arises a natural question. Whom itself position, teachers of the woman?

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